How many cups of tea does it take in the morning to wake you?Do you (still) judge me for dutifully swallowing tablets each am and pm? Do you not understand that this is the difference between life and living and death?

These hands, they tremor. I miss keys on the laptop. This isn't bad spelling, this is an urgency of the mind that the body can't keep up with. I burnt the diaries, deleted the photos. I say Erin Veness is dead with not just clarity but confidence. I have many different faces and many different words to shout.

These are the thing that you always wanted to do.

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