I didn’t update after my two-week review because the review was with the Locum GP at my Doctors surgery.
I have a lot of thoughts on the fact that I am left to have a reviews of psychiatric medicines with my GP instead of a Psychiatrist. I have a lot of thoughts on the subject of not always managing to get an appointment with my own GP.
(Quickly though, it is most definitely a cost cutting exercise on the part of CMHT and Mental Health in general, if my GP can do the review is means that it frees up my Psychiatrists time, which allows him to see more people meaning that CMHT don’t need so many Psychiatrists employed - thus saving them money. It’s why I am convinced that my local CHMT has put on so many therapy groups - as it’s cheaper than one-to-one psychologist appointments. Cynical, me? Never!)
Anyway - so obviously having a review with a Locum GP wasn’t the best, especially as the appointment was only ten minutes. With the aim of being a good patient, I pretty much just said “Gimme gimme gimme” for a prescription and ran out all within seven minutes. It’s sometimes easier to play the game than try to explain my Mental Health history that spans 15 years to a GP I might never see again. Especially when the medication is relatively new to the UK market and I don’t feel like I’m having any serious side-effects.
I have no idea why I decided to write this today, especially when it’s not a brilliant day mental health wise. I feel a little bit lost and a little bit adrift and a little bit whats-the-pissing-point? I don’t attribute this to any medication, or any outside influence at all, I think at times, even though I’m swallowing a mountain of drugs daily, that I’m still going to have bad mental health days, and I think today is one of those. Yay.
Anyway, Wednesday morning I have an appointment with my actual GP(!) and there will, I’m sure, be discussions of raising the dose.